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somehow i can't see what is right before my eyes.
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narcissist in the mirror
one xREDballoon
is how she signs her name.

She developed a love for fashion, but can't tell the difference between avant garde and a five-year-old's ruined art project. She likes platform shoes with crazy heels, very detailed black lace, truckloads of ruffles, and as many quotes as tumblr can fit. She's a Pisces with an attitude to match, and lives in her own planet with a fourth wall. Famously talks at people without them bothering to listen.

She writes,
and she loves it.

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Letters
Sunday, September 27, 2009
01:33:00
I consulted with my grandfather about your concerns regarding romantic bones in my body. He assures me that he has never had a romantic bone in his body. To the best of his recollection, neither his father nor his grandfather had one, either. Thus, there have been four generations of Tezukas before me with no romantic bones. As such, it is genetically highly unlikely that I have one.

That’s why I need you.

Tezuka


I love this letter so much.
It's absolutely idiotic, but so cute.
I found it in a Prince of Tennis fanfic.
Nevermind the fact that I do not know who the heck Tezuka is.

Even though we both don't know who the hell the characters are,
Siao Meng, you should totally go read it because it is totally dumb.
In a way that won't kill brain cells, I promise.

Also, please do not ask me what am I doing up at nearly 2 am in the morning.
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Saturday, September 26, 2009
16:12:00
So sue me if I've gone to borrow a whole stack of books ( two vampire novels, one gritty surrealist novel) instead of studying dilligently like a good triple science student.

But come on, Anne Rice is writing about Armand!
I always wanted to know why he went to join those religiously psycho vampires in their covens.
And I also wanted to know how the hell he managed to return to normal afterwards.
Marius was delightfully vague in that.
In Blood and Gold, Armand/Amadeo (I actually like the name Amadeo, it sounds so foreign) was suddenly back with Marius and Pandora, and they never stated why. It's like another taken for granted thing.

It was terrible to read through the beginning chapters of Armand's life.
Mainly cause he's only fifteen, and childish.
or maybe cause he's having sex everywhere

Either way, it's been nice so far though.

And Hetalia has a new episode.
Once I'm done here, I'll go watch it.

Hero still has no updates.
I wonder what is it with the really good web comics that leads to them having updates that come in what feels like once in a millennia.
If you don't know what Hero is, you have been deprived of the best web comic ever.
And I'm not particularly kidding either.
Here's a link for you to follow if you're interested.
It's not like most web comics either,
it has a more complex plot in there than the norm,
and it's a lot more thoughtful and musing than the usual.
It's less plot, and more think.
Highly unsuitable for people with an attention-span like mine,
but I like the things that they say and think about,
and I still like to read it through anyway.
It is only 232 pages at last count, and the art is pretty good.

I need to resume reading now.
I want to start on Murakami by tomorrow.
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monologues
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
18:05:00
I can't remember the last time I typed anything for fun.
As in, for the sake of writing out what's in my head.

I think a lot, really I do.
Just not about what I'm supposed to do.

What I think about is something along the lines of
characters
stories
plots
people who don't matter
philosophical stuff like
whether a tree makes a sound when it falls when nobody hears it

things like that.
it's quite boring to be me really.
everybody thinks you're kinda weird
and you never really are able to accept yourself
and love yourself for who you are,
whatever the hell that you are.
I should have written me.

but no, i shall resist.
how am i ever going to face up to truth if i don't stop editing myself out?
i should start now.

but i've already begun censoring my words.
what a shame that is.
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KHR
Monday, September 21, 2009
17:37:00
I think I told JiaEn before, and I say it again.

"I'll just be happy with fangirling after Yamamoto and Hibari."
-nod nod-
and everything was happy and gay.

AND THEN,
the mangaka had to go draw Mukuro with long hair.
my response was a very reasonable
"Ah... #$^%."

I swear they KNEW how much I love gritty male anti-heroes with long black hair.
AND red eyes.
yes. That too.


So anyway here's some pictures of Hibari:



And here's a really good Mukuro picture (I couldn't find Yamamoto):


And here's Mukuro and Hibari TOGETHER:



and finally, here's some Dino for the lulz.


Do you think that the mangaka really didn't know what he was doing when he made Dino (whip user) become the teacher of Hibari (some guy with a fetish of being a dog and biting people)?
I think he did that for the purpose of SHEER fanservice.
Just like Chrome Dokuro is just Mukuro in a skirt.
I dare you to deny that.

All pictures drawn by Brilcrist.
Click on them for a larger picture.
You know you want to >D
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01:52:00
“ There are certain people who come into your life, and leave a mark… their place in your heart is tender; a bruise of longing, a pulse of unfinished business. just hearing their names pushes and pulls at you in a hundred ways, and when you try to define those hundred ways, describe them even to yourself, words are useless.


“ Do you know the most surprising thing about heartache? It doesn’t actually kill you. Like a bullet to the heart, or a head-on car wreck, it should. When someone you’ve promised to cherish forever says, “I never loved you,” it should kill you instantly. You shouldn’t have to wake up day after day after that, trying to understand how in the world you didn’t know.


both from finally seeing

You know, I should stop posting up stuff like this.
It makes me seem like some lovesick emo
(which I can never bring myself down to become)

But they just highlight how much I love language.
You look at the words, and somehow, they can make such an impact.
And they didn't even need to italicize anything.
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Random Finds
Saturday, September 19, 2009
17:25:00
I don't think I need to tell you this but...
Clcik on the thumbnails for a larger view.
If you know what's good for you, click on it.


Ahhhh~ What is it with artists and their girls? <3
Amazing art from non-english sites are always a love.
This one's from Here.



Best MJ art ever <3
Quoth Luxirare: "Little Michael = Mozart with a 'fro"
APPROVED.


WAHH HETALIA~~~
-coughs- from here.
If you can't even name the characters, shame on you.


He's lookin' at chuuuu~
I love the works here
I think the site is called NeoClassic.
But I can't read Korean for nuts.


Good question.
I have no frikkin' idea :D
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:D
Thursday, September 17, 2009
18:22:00
Yes, I went on a hiatus, and after so long, what do I post up about?

My new favourite words of course :D

Retrograde
1. Moving or tending backward.
2. Opposite to the usual order; inverted or reversed.
3. Reverting to an earlier or inferior condition.
4. Astronomy
5. Archaic Opposed; contrary.


Anterograde
1 : occurring or performed in the normal or forward direction of conduction or flow
2 : affecting memories of a period immediately following a shock or seizure


Yeah, I like english. Why?

...
Okay, I feel guilty for wasting your time now.
Here, have some quirky Zelda music.



And some misquoted Terminator/Bible fusion.
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Wednesday, September 09, 2009
00:05:00


he doesn't look THAT bad in profile as Cedric Diggory you know.

but after death...
HE WHO MUST NOT BE MENTIONED
LEST YOU BE STRUCK DOWN BY THE EVIL
OF AN EIGHTIES DISCO BALL/VAMPIRE THINGY.
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headphones and flash
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
23:28:00
I have found a new love in life.
They are called headphones.

especially since my Sony Ericsson one is not officially broken (it wasn't my fault), i'm browsing around for headphones.

and the friendly encounter with the ultimate noise-cancelling*, bass-amplifying, crystal-clear, razor-sharp quality offered by the over-ear headphones in the Borders bookstore in Parkway, i've decided i want a pair just like that.

except, with more COLOUR.

*as evidenced by Jia En shouting in the CD shop when we stand next to her for a chat because she can't even hear herself.

and i found 2XL.

their product page is the post amazing thing i've seen.
but then again, i'm always like some frog-in-well.


i especially like the use of bold lime green against black: striking and edgy. PRETTY~
but then again, i think the fact that i adjusted my monitor to a blinding contrast/brightness combo has something to do with the colours popping out and scalding my retinas.


if you haven't noticed, the whole thing runs on flash.
that means to navigate, you click-pull-drag like you would flip the pages of a book.
now how amazing is THAT?


one of my favourites of the headphone lines.
it's the hot-pink/white version of GRILLS.
since i want over-ear versions, that's all you get to see~~
the others aren't half as pretty, trust me.



LAST ONE!
i like the blue on this one.
cornflower/sky blue and zesty red = <3


CHECK IT OUT

pity it's only available in the US ;___;
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Russian OSTs
Monday, September 07, 2009
20:59:00



there's only one.
but it sounds strangely pretty.
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Random stuff
Sunday, September 06, 2009
17:27:00


Scarlet Moon
Meiko
Megurine Luka

何がリアルか わからない時代
ホンキの声が 聞こえない世界
だから僕たちは 確かめてみたい
さあ 四角い空から
さあ 覚悟を決めたら

高鳴る鼓動 目覚める衝動
爆発しそう この胸の炎
繰り返すだけの 毎日に say no!
さあ 答えを探して
さあ ココロのツバサで ◎fly high!

scarlet moon 燃え上がる 夜の彼方
走り出す あやまちも恐れない
いつもいつまでも 君とならば
分かちあう 明日への ああ
自由と痛みを


I wanna be くらい 好きにしてほしい
愛想笑いの 楽園にgood-bye
誰も僕たちを 止められやしない 
さあ 扉の向こうへと
さあ 飛び込め希望へと

限界なんて 言葉に意味ナイ
中途半端に 終われないゼッタイ
コブシ振り上げて 宣言革命
さあ 行こうぜ旅人
最高な旅へと ◎freedom! 

shooting star 流れてく 時の彼方
手を伸ばす 今はまだ遠い未来
きっと君となら 叶うはずさ
信じてる 夢に続く 夜明けの光を


絶え間なくfaraway そうさいつも 願ってる
立ち止まって いられない
時は待って くれないから だから

チャンスにtry again どんなときも 僕らは
立ち向かって ゆくだけさ 
夢をぎゅっと 抱きしめたら we are!


scarlet moon 呼んでいる 夜の彼方
描き出す 大空は無限大
いつかいつの日か 届くまでは
駆け抜ける 僕たちの 生まれた証を

shooting star 流れてく 時の彼方
手を伸ばす 今はまだ遠い未来
きっと君となら ゆけるはずさ
信じてる 夢に続く 夜明けの光を

scarlet moon 燃え上がる 夜の彼方
走り出せ あやまちも恐れない
いつもいつまでも 君とならば
分かちあえる 明日への ああ
自由の痛みを


can you imagine the TROUBLE it took me to even find these untranslated lyrics?
;____<
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Latin Law
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
17:49:00
“Nasciturus pro iam nato habetur, quotiens de commodis eius agitur.
(The unborn is deemed to have been born to the extent that its own benefits are concerned)
- Latin legal phrase



“Duorum in solidum dominium vel possessio esse non potest.
(Two persons cannot own or possess a thing in the entirety.)
- Latin legal phrase



“Nec vi, nec clam, nec precario.
(Not by force, nor stealth, nor licence.)
- Latin legal Phrase


via Wikipedia




The Latin people sure had some crazy ideas of law.
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