It kinda hit me that this is the third time I'm blogging just for today. I dunno, it's just kind of calming... and stuff, to know that nobody is reading my little non-personal diary.

Sometimes when I write here, I take pleasure in knowing nobody realizes I'm hiding here without the knowledge of people.
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Obsessive-Compulsive should be the correct term, but for me I think Obsessive-Possessive sounds much prettier. I do obsess, over a lot of things maybe some people cannot even begin to contemplate. I take pride in being a very pure Piscean, I could survive in my mind with a little practice and simply let go.

Sometimes, I see no point in living in this... mundane, boring world. Sometimes the rather smooth coinage of 'suicide' drifts through my musings (since I was about 9, about the same time Tsuyura and Dreilin came), and more than once I can picture how it happens, with my worst fear portrayed in it; altophobia.

I never did quite stop thinking about death, it is in a way very curious a thing, and though I barely contemplate my own, I image it very much like another gateway to a future....

Obsessive-Possessive means to be unable to let go and let the said object take over all thought. As is obsession. Possessiveness comes in when the person refuses to let anyone near it, hoarding it like a dragon would treasure, hiding it away, yearning for it or having already possessed it, moon over it.

As weird as it sounds, I find it beautiful that the human mind is able of such curious behaviour.

And I think you might have heard of how I describe words to be 'pretty' or 'smooth', well it simply means that I find that it sounds 'right', and easy for the human tongue. As if it can be said as simply as breathing, very... you know, just natural.

It's hard to explain how I think, but for me, English is a very strange object, alive sometimes and still in others, like a long river, with the quick flowing rapids that simply crash and wear down rocks with white water, and the calm bits which lap softly and gently in their banks. It just seems natural for me to fix two words that sound 'smooth' together.
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The following is an outburst, it refers to none of the general majority who will ever read this blog. This is on a different scale altogether and does not even begin to include any of her peers.

For the record,
Call me 'emo', call me whatever, make yourself happy, knock yourself out.
There is nothing there on the surface for me. I don't seen how it will affect me anymore.
I don't want to care either.

Don't tell me what to be, how to act and that I have no mannerism.
You are not me, and I detest you for not trying to be.

You know who you are, and you probably don't understand a word I have just written.

Just know this: I hate you.

Your Reputation Is: Mystery Girl

You're the girl that everyone is trying to figure out. Men are attracted to your intriguing persona - and women want to copy it!

Uh... Like... WTF?!

You Are 72% Lady

Overall, you are a refined lady with excellent manners. But you also know when to relax and not get too serious about etiquette

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone. Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people. Sometimes this faith can lead to disappointment in the long run. No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way. You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle. Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings. A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning. You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

And I also got this result:

You Are a Bright Star Soul

Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attention. In fact, you often feel a bit hurt when all eyes aren't on you You need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivial. And it's this ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you achieve You're dramatic and a powerhouse of pure energy You posess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to define A natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles. Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally! Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul

O_o I shall never cease to amaze myself...

Yes, Abigail is a twit for facts.

She never gets them right >w< Damned youssssss!

And my D&T turned out pretty good, just maybe I'll need to paint a third coat on my little roller duckies but overall, the wheels and crap are well-coated and cut and already more or less connected to the main duck body with satay skewers. And the skewers took hell to well... skewer the wheels. And I nearly skewered my finger too come to think of it. Oh well.

And in case you people are wondering, I am proficient in chat speaking/twit-talking as well. I just hate it cause it's annoying. And anyway, my idea of chat speak is the more uncommonly seen kind; it is so annoying it was hate'd and bann'd in most forums xD

I'm thinking of writing another one-shot story for Xenia and Reisa's every lasting friendship, maybe invent a few more male OCs to balance out my highly female populated dimensions.Especially since Morvrin and Kotaru are seldom used at all as protagonists. Even in the story were Morv was a main character, I gave up on writing the story before he even appeared.

So, now back to the drawing board, and I think I just found a new name for my fairly new horse-man rider in Caerst. A pity I can't draw armour.

Hyuukai is a pretty name, no?

And it took hell to type that title, I had to use a dictionary for that. Damn the person who stole my electronic dictionary 8D

Well anyway, school! Have ter wake up at 5am again... ow. But at least I get to go see the rest of 1JT again. And we'll see if Jia Wen has changed.. xD And the art project, darn, had to do in school in my case. No visiting of people's houses cause Tanah Mereh is too far! I mean jeebus O.o

And that! *points at the title frenetically* is the title of Blaue Rosen. My new addiction wrapped up in red. For the second volume anyway. The first volume is wrapped in white because it must give some contrast! Whahahahaha, go Blaue Rosen. It's waaay too cool.

Now I must get the third book. =__=; And here the problem comes in.

Aithein told me I should go get Jia Wen to buy for me. But for me, I doubt that's a good idea unless I want Jia Wen to suffer from over blood-loss. Remember what I said about the cover? The one about the bishounen? Yeah, you get the idea.

Doesn't help that Akira looks so shuai too xD

well anyway, I'm juggling in my mind and trying to see if it is a wiser choice to bring book 1 or book 2. Because I have no doubt Jia Wen would like book 2 more, but hell... I like book 1 more, and it is mine Dx Nevermind! I shall do as I please.

I'm gonna bring book 2 8D Please remember to bring tissue paper Jia Wen! Never know when it could be useful...

I finally got a new hair tie! Wheeha! Go Acid Green hair tie.

Once again,I have no life and has gotten another one of those furry-looking one's to add to my current collection. Yes, acid green makes a pretty addition to my monochrome twins of hair tie >D

And omigawd! Blaue Rosen! I finally got it! GOTITGOTITGOTITGOTITGOTIT! It's like the kewlest comic book to hit the shelves >DDD It's so cyuuuute....
Akira is suuuch a two-faced miserable guy. And Mizuki... well what can I say? She's like putty, so easily manipulated by Akira, the poor girl.

Now I want to read book 2. I should wrangle the book from Aithien sometime, maybe =P Or I'll just buy it myself. But book 3 has a cover that's just... ow, I doubt it's possible that Rachel and JiaWen won't notice that I've got a manga book with a picture of an almost-fully-nekkid bishounen on the cover! Impossible.

I swear JiaWen has some kind of sixth sense just for it Dx So, yeah.

Go T.A.t.u! I love 30 minutes!

Heyhey people,

Aren't romance novels just the most horrendous things in this world?

*cricket chirp*

Well, they are. Try reading Sense and Sensibility (by Jane Austen) without falling asleep. It's horrendous, I promise. Unless you like all the wishy-washy, mushy romance stuff with an extra heavy dosage of old english. I don't, because of this article I read somewhere in Discover magazine my kor bought on a monthly basis: Love, a chemical reaction.

I was weaned off love stories by that. Because... well 'Love is a dirty trick played on the community to ensure continuity of the species.' Where's the proof? Try watching Animal Planet every single day during the holidays. You'd be surprised.

Yet, I enjoy reading Fanfiction's love stories, because well, they're less on the courtship and Romeo-Juliet trash, which is a great saviour for me because I can't stand it. I'll simply tumble over laughing. But all the angst love stories are yummy, I could eat them for lunch.

Ever tried to write a love story? I have, ad it's only about say, 3 pages? 1325 words I presume, I can't recall. And yes you can read it, I'm trying to print it without my printer conking out.

Just that remember, I'm a sadistic person and the leads never get together, because I like the Angst factor in stories.

Oh, and the story's name is Stricken. You'll know why.

Bye bye <3

An easy question: How do you spill brain juice and make your brain disappear?

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Answer: Get Siao Meng to eat it.

See! Told you it was damned easy.

And I got a new manga! Trinity Blood! Go Vampires!
Okay, so Trinity Blood is talking about the extermination of vampires, but who gives a damned? Vampires are so sexy that as long as they appear, the manga will rawk! Whahahaha <3 Oh right, I wanted to say to you and what I once told Aithein:

"When other girls wanted to be ballerinas, I kinda wanted to be a vampire."
So like me.

And what am I doing here rambling on like some idiot? Because I'm an idiot? No.

Because, well, just because. OH! And I finally found Blaue Rosen, I wanted to buy it, until... I found a yellow and black sticker on the top right corner: "Warning: Content not suitable for children" ....Right, so typical of Singapore's Warning Label Tackers. Aithein said something about it too... She said:

"Blaue Rosen is soooo... cool! It has things about virgin blood and first times and-"

Oh right, no wonder O_o